Her

I'm glad she can't see this because if she could I wouldn't be able to say what I want to say, so here it is..

In the beginning it didn't seem like much to me. What we were doing was innocent. I never thought I'd get wrapped up in you and that i'd feel as though I fell short somewhere inside when I wasn't around you. I didn't think I had anything to be afraid of. I was afraid of falling for someone after my previous relationship, but I didn't think i'd fall for you.

When we first started talking it was wonderful, stimulating conversations. I enjoyed those. You came across as someone I could talk to about anything. It felt like I had known you for years opposed to hours. We both did what we wanted, when we wanted with who wanted, but I couldn't get you off my mind even when I did do my do with whatever female. You made it clear that the feeling was mutual and that you wanted me and only me.

This is what I can't figure out.

It felt like after you said that and I cut my contacts short, you started being a complete asshole to me. Sweet it seemed, but you were busy lying to me. I gave you a chance even after the shit I had seen and after the shit you said. Maybe that's where I fucked up. Hm.

I guess i'm still stuck on the fact that round #2 occurred.
It doesn't make any sense.