I'm sorry.

I legit left and forgot all about this blog. Perhaps i'll dish out some thoughts that have been playing dress up in my head.

Dragonflies

Are what I used to get before I had the chance to be with you.


I miss you so much.

Patatas Bravas

Toro

1704 Washington Street
Boston, MA 02118
(617) 536-4300

Breaking

It's like i've been watching myself break into pieces that grow smaller and smaller minute by minute.
I'm in love.

Up until this moment I haven't admitted it.
But I can't keep lying to myself.

Damn, this has been much harder than I EVER anticipated.

I've been playing cool, but it's easy to see that i'm intoxicated by the fantasy.
This doesn't happen to me.

Everything about this song..

This was some of the shrimp tempura with chili salt that I had ordered at Yenching in Harvard Square.

TO DIE FOR.

I will start taking more photos of the restaurants and surrounding areas (Shops, book stores etc) when I go out :)

1326 Massachusetts Ave
Cambridge, MA 02138
Neighborhood: Harvard Square

(617) 547-1130

I happen to appreciate an empty auditorium at a movie theater. haha :)

Okay, so I'm obsessed with this song.

I love Tinashe. That voice. Oh my god.

Funky sound, great style.
It's comforting and still energizing.
Great mix.

I'll post more songs that I enjoy. Keep a look out!

Her

I'm glad she can't see this because if she could I wouldn't be able to say what I want to say, so here it is..

In the beginning it didn't seem like much to me. What we were doing was innocent. I never thought I'd get wrapped up in you and that i'd feel as though I fell short somewhere inside when I wasn't around you. I didn't think I had anything to be afraid of. I was afraid of falling for someone after my previous relationship, but I didn't think i'd fall for you.

When we first started talking it was wonderful, stimulating conversations. I enjoyed those. You came across as someone I could talk to about anything. It felt like I had known you for years opposed to hours. We both did what we wanted, when we wanted with who wanted, but I couldn't get you off my mind even when I did do my do with whatever female. You made it clear that the feeling was mutual and that you wanted me and only me.

This is what I can't figure out.

It felt like after you said that and I cut my contacts short, you started being a complete asshole to me. Sweet it seemed, but you were busy lying to me. I gave you a chance even after the shit I had seen and after the shit you said. Maybe that's where I fucked up. Hm.

I guess i'm still stuck on the fact that round #2 occurred.
It doesn't make any sense.

This song gets me going.

Frustration

I had been employed at a certain retail store. After much thought because of the time restraints and the horrible tasks at hand, I quit. I called in a few weeks back and I was told that i'd have my application reactivated and that i'd get a call in just a week or two. It's been three weeks. I've been playing phone tag with the employers and i'm just frustrated and pissed off. The move to the new store is happening this week and the fact that i'm not there and not working makes me angry. I'm trying to be as calm as possible, but I do not at all like it when people say that will do something and they don't. I know my application does not take a month to be reactivated. That means that this is total bullshit. Ugh, this mishap or more so lack of professionalism is hindering some serious business. I need that money. :/

I really need more shots like this in my portfolio.
I wanted to capture what she was feeling in her eyes and I think I did a great job.
But more.
More is what I want.

Say It Here

Here we go again.

I have so many different blogs, but for my sake and for yours I hope that this one is different. I want people to get to know me. I want people to know what lurks around in my head. My other blogs are personal as well, but this one I want to be just me, my camera, my life, my thoughts. I just need it all to be here. I'm not good when it comes to therapy or even medication. I always bail.  I figured if I can stay true to a blog that focuses on what's in my head then perhaps i can get back to counseling and taking meds.

Yeah? Yeah, I think so.